garbled

i haven't been writing for the last couple years and i think it's clouded my brain and made me stop being able to make sentences.  i stopped writing because of shame and guilt and fear of people reading what i'm writing. i'm in the midst of change in my life and i need to get it out to clear my head and be ok with the direction i'm going.  starting now i will work on letting my mind breathe and letting my fingers go where they may with the keyboard or journal for my own sake and sanity.