Face your fears!

http://www.thechangeblog.com/face-your-fears/

yup.

ok so that last one was kind of depressing

I'm listening to Sade - By Your Side and I this past weekend I spent with my sister.  I can't tell you how much it helped me.  I got clarity and found a way to channel my anger.  I have been so shameful of my anger, hatred and distaste for things and people that it's changing me.  I am now ok to use that power for good and be assertive.  There are so many times I want to say fuck you and I smooth it over with "ok-ness".  I'm not there anymore and it's so empowering.

tree in the forest

if a tree falls in the forest and there's no one there to hear, does it still make a sound?  if one is always alone in the world, what's the point?

garbled

i haven't been writing for the last couple years and i think it's clouded my brain and made me stop being able to make sentences.  i stopped writing because of shame and guilt and fear of people reading what i'm writing. i'm in the midst of change in my life and i need to get it out to clear my head and be ok with the direction i'm going.  starting now i will work on letting my mind breathe and letting my fingers go where they may with the keyboard or journal for my own sake and sanity.

feeling free

spaz